This is the eighteenth of our spotlights on community members who volunteer with the CSPC in leadership positions. In this issue, we’ve asked some questions to get a deep and personal look at our Discord Coordinator and Party Champion of Kinderkritters: Wired (an online ageplay/petplay event coming May 28!), Fleur Bellerose.

• Name and/or scene name:

Fleur Bellerose

• Pronouns:

She/they

• How do you identify (this can include gender, sexual orientation, kink or BDSM roles, etc.)?

I’m a polyamorous, panromantic, demisexual, nerdy, transgender demigirl. I’m a collective of personalities (DID) working together in a single body. I am the matriarch of House Bellerose. In kink scenes, I’m mainly an ageplaying switch, but I often have big Mommy domme vibes.

• How long have you been with the CSPC?

I began volunteering in May 2021. After moving to Washington in the middle of a pandemic, the CSPC has provided opportunities and spaces that I would never have thought possible.

• What brought you here and what are your main areas of interest?

Originally, what brought me to the CSPC was its events. Prior to Covid, I was hosting ageplay events in Michigan, and when I heard about Fucking Precious and The Sandbox I saw an opportunity to volunteer and perhaps even to educate my local community while I follow the science behind ageplay and age regression. Like many ageplayers and regressors, my interests in these topics began long ago, though I only began including this side of myself in relationship dynamics in 2016. I couldn’t be happier with that decision.

• CSPC e-mail address, title/role, reasons for contact/areas you cover:

You can reach me at discordcoordinator@thecspc.org. I’m currently acting as the Discord Coordinator, which means I run the CSPC’s Discord server and oversee everything that goes on there while providing additional organizational tools to its volunteers and board members, as well as a welcoming social media platform to its volunteers and any interested members.

• What was your path to your current position?

As I’ve been managing online communities for over a decade, and running Discord servers since before it became one of the most popular online communication platforms, hosting cozy online spaces comes as little challenge. When I began volunteering, the CSPC was searching for someone to run its Discord server. When I filled the position, there was a massive overhaul of the server to be done, and I’m now also self-hosting a Discord bot to help with moderation tasks and user-friendly features like self-assignable Discord roles. Since then, I’ve been seeking out other volunteer opportunities within the CSPC to help serve my local community.

• Which CSPC event is your favorite and why? 

Thus far, The Sandbox. Having a virtual event based around ageplay mid-pandemic was a massive boon to my partners and I. One of my littles will never forget one of the stories told there, and to this day she’ll giggle and blush if you look at her and say, “bee bo”!

• Career or day job (industry, position, or whatever you're comfortable sharing):

Surviving by any means necessary, just as many others.

• What do you like to do in your free time?

I legitimately enjoy the work I do in community leadership, and that’s part of what I do as a passion and hobby. I cook for my House, and do so quite well. I’m a nerd, and play a lot of different types of video games, board games, and tabletop games. And every now and then, I’ll take a blushing newbie little under my wing to show them the ropes.

• Living situation (partners, roommates, pets, plants):

I’m currently rooming with the partners in my polycule. They and I are House Bellerose, and the bonds between us have become nigh unbreakable.

• Something no one would ever guess about you or a fun fact:

I’m autistic, with ADHD, CPTSD and DID. For those of you whom that means something to, I say this: if you can’t find a place for yourself in the world, make your world fit to you. Find people that love, accept, and care for you, and show it every day regardless of your flaws.

• Turn-ons and/or squicks: 

Turn ons? Ageplay, diapers, hypnosis, petplay, edging, intelligence, spanking, chastity, rope, and bondage. Both in submissive and dominant roles and probably in that order too, unless bondage mixes with ageplay, in which case it goes right to the top! All of these are huge turn ons for me though, along with humble intelligence. I’ve been experimenting with impact and primal play in dominant positions, and I’m curious about how I’d look in leather. But most of all, consent. It ain’t hot if you can’t not.

Squicks? For one, disrespect in its many forms, whether it’s a lack of communication or a violation of boundaries. I’m definitely not a pain slut. Watching others inflict pain on someone’s most sensitive bits is unsettling to me, as is blood play. Scat grosses me out. I’m not here to shit on anyone though, YKINMKATOK. (Your Kink Is Not My Kink And That’s OK)

• Hopes and concerns for the CSPC and/or the greater sex positive community:

Education is key. Knowledge is power. I want to help provide my local community with as much knowledge and as many tools as possible to continue progressing sex-positivity as a widespread part of modern culture.

• Advice for a new member or volunteer: 

Definitely put yourself out there as much as possible. Make sure to be patient, as we’re all volunteers here and have lives outside of the organization. Finally, don’t lose heart if you mess up, as it’s part of the learning process. Be honest, admit your faults, and always seek to know more.

• Is there an event or organization, outside of the CSPC, that you feel our community should know about?

Absolutely. Huge shoutout to Aimee and her Bluestocking Bookshop back in Holland, Michigan. I began running events in person for the first time at her bookshop. Without her, I probably wouldn’t be here volunteering with the CSPC! Another huge shoutout to our volunteer DJ Napalot who took these photos. Hit him up here if you want your own: djnapalotpro@gmail.com.

• How can we build up each other? How can we be here for one another?

Accept honest mistakes. Life is a journey and learning is a never ending process. Be forgiving as a default, but also do not put yourself at risk doing so. Love unconditionally, but also know to love oneself. Be honest and communicate efficiently, including when it comes to one’s own needs. Be your own priority when you must, but give back whenever possible. Balance is essential.

Huge gratitude from the CSPC to Fleur and our other volunteers! Interested in supporting your CSPC community by joining in the volunteer action? You can learn more and begin the volunteering process with the online orientation at https://thecspc.org/volunteering.